This really stuck with me today. It can’t express how I feel any better. It also reminds me of what I need to do in my life. What I think about constantly, but don’t follow through with. That I need to just speak and not walk on eggshells. That I need to do more for myself and what makes me feel good.
I want to thank, Rachael, a friend on Facebook. One of the very few friends that I have on Facebook, that I have never actually met in person. I adore your drive for life. For peace. For health. For education. ♥
I joined the gym last week. I wanted to just join Bikram, but the gym is closer. For now it will have to do. Anyway, I thought I would check out this mornings Yoga class. Ug! After the first 10 minutes I wanted to run out of there.
She started with welcoming everyone to “Yoga-Fusion” and introducing with her name. Right there I knew I was in trouble. I don’t know why I always do this to myself. I go in there thinking, this is going to be so great! Errrrrr!!! Not so much!
When I go to Yoga I expect breathing, great poses, holding poses, etc. You know, the norm. Not a class that is so fast that you can’t even get all the way into the pose, especially if it is something new, or as for me today, so stiff and not haven’t been for several months.
I really thought about walking out like 10 times. I tried so hard to just calm myself, but I couldn’t stand it. Obviously, I won’t be going back.
I’m obviously feeling disappointed in the class and in myself for being such a fool, again. Come February, I am getting my shit back on track with what is convenient for me, not what I feel is convenient for those driving me. I need to get my life back on track for me. It has been way too long and I can’t wait! 🙂
I am feeling pretty proud of myself sticking to something that is so good for me. Last night was my 9th Bikram Yoga session in 12 days. I am still a bit sore, but definitely not as much as when I first began.
Last night my friend Elizabeth, her Son and I went together. The room was hot. I immediately started to sweat. It felt great! I could feel my muscles start to loosen up. I felt strong in my practice. A little wobbly, or nauseous at times, but strong. I can feel the change finally starting to happen. I can’t wait to see what I will be feeling like after my 20th day.
I plan on only missing Thursday, Saturday and Sunday this week. I will be in Sedona with my Husband for Saturday and Sunday, so I think that is a pretty good excuse. I think 4 out of 7 isn’t too bad either. Still perfect to stay in check and with a healthy program.
I keep having people tell me how they are scared to go due to the heat, sweating, etc. I keep telling them it is all normal and once they go and then go back again a few times it will become addicting. They will feel amazing. Can you tell I have found something new that I really like? 🙂
I was so happy to make yet another Bikram Yoga session last night. 7th one in 8 days, and I am feeling pretty proud about that. I am so happy that my friend, Elizabeth, has been wanting to go with me and carpooling over.
My practice last night was pretty strong. The room was actually cooler, which I think makes a pretty big difference in what you are burning and your heart rate, but I still sweat a ton. I also felt great last night!
I’ve seemed to have pulled an upper hamstring. I have just been taking it easy and trying to have the strongest practice that I can. After my practice this morning I will have 2 days off, then back on Monday. I am hoping that will be sufficient time to heal and be back to being able to stretch without having to worry about hurting myself.
I actually feel really good right now. I had a quick bite to eat at home after my Bikram Yoga practice tonight. Took a nice shower and headed for bed. I feel a bit slow and sore behind my right upper hamstring, but that is about it.
I was so happy that Elizabeth wanted to go again today. It was her second time this week and my 6th in 7 days. I felt stronger in my practice tonight, which is what I was shooting for. I was also trying to stay more focused.
The room didn’t feel as hot tonight. I think that was because the fans were on a little higher than normal. It felt good though and I have no complaints.
At the end of our practice and during our final savasinna Jon, our instructor, read us his favorite poem. He said that Bikram’s Wife read it during one of her sessions…
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: “Hold on”;
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings – nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run –
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man my son!
I am gearing up for my 6th Bikram Yoga session in the past 7 days tonight. Monday was my 5th night, my Second Son’s 2nd and my 4th sons 2nd time, just not his 2nd in a row.
I was a little leery to let my 4th son, who is only 6, attend a session after school. After a long day, a hungry child needs to eat and chill. He insisted though. He does love yoga, so I let him come. On the way he had some water and a ZBar. After about 15, or 20 minutes into the session I noticed that he wasn’t doing the poses properly and seemed fidgety. I let it go for a while. After about an hour I couldn’t let it go any further. He was trying so hard. He looked exhausted. I stood up, took him by the hand and grabbed his water. I sat him on the couch in the cool air of the front room. Filled up his water and made sure he was okay. He just seemed tired and a bit dehydrated. After sitting with him for a few minutes, I took him to the restroom to pee, had him rinse his face in cool water and head back to the couch. I went back and continued the last 10 minutes of my practice. By the time I came out he was much better. When we got home, I put him on the couch with a plate of chicken breast and some ice water. He was perfect after 20 minutes. I have to give him credit for such a little guy. With no pressure from me, he sure does try hard. Such a great little guy!!
As for my 2nd Son and I and my friend Elizabeth (it was her first class), we made it though. I was a bit tired and shaky through my practice that night, but was so happy I went. I am hoping tonight that I will feel a bit more energy and strength, as I am feeling a bit tired at the moment and hungary for the second night in a row. It will be good to get out of the house and away from the kitchen. I am so happy that my friend Elizabeth asked me to go with her again today. So great! 🙂
Yesterday was my 4th day in a row to Bikram Yoga. I am so proud of myself. Not only am I proud of myself, but my 2nd Son (10 years old) went with me for his 2nd day in a row. Isn’t that amazing? I think so! As my instructor Jon says, “Ignite the fire!”
We went yesterday, running in as we were hoping that we didn’t get there too late. My Son did phenomenal! Me on the other hand… I was not able to balance very well and my feet were feeling ache and cramped. I got though it though. With grunts here and there. Deep Breaths and a big smile on my face. It was so worth it!
My Son woke up and came into my room to tell me that he was pretty ache today. I told him that he well should be. He is working muscles that he has never worked before and he did it two days in a row. Most 10 year olds have never done anything like that in their lives. I told him that I was sore and exhausted too, but going to try to go back as soon as I can. So… I am going back today too… 5 days! Woo hoo! 🙂