Tag Archive | Kids

“I told you I’m fine.”

Dec4

“I told you I’m fine,” when he had fainted 15 hours before. “I told you I’m fine,” after he tells me his head feels like it’s between a vice. “I told you I’m fine,” after he’s had diarrhea for three weeks and just told me so this morning. “I told you I’m fine,” after throwing up all day Sunday. “I told you I’m fine,” after he steps down off the scale showing he’s lost roughly 10 pounds. “I told you I’m fine,” after he tells me he can only eat and drink a little at a time. “I told you I’m fine,” after he called me from school saying he only made it up two flights of stairs and had to take the elevator the last two, because he felt so weak. “I told you I’m fine,” after he sat in my room and told me that every little sound was magnified and he he just wanted to lay in his bed where it is quiet. “I told you I’m fine,” when he looks into my eyes and he is clearly not.

Son, you are not fine. You will not leave our side. You will see a doctor. I will make sure you get better. These symptoms do not mean that you are fine. To appease me does not make you fine. The only fine thing will be when you smile and tell me how great you feel. For real. That is when you will be fine.

In the meantime I will keep at it. Keep caring about you. Keep watch over you. Keep trying to figure out how to make you fine and heathy. I will never give up. I am your Mother. The only time I am happy is when you are truly ‘fine’.

I love you. ❌⭕️❌⭕️

Missing Birthdays

Oct22

I never even thought about the important days that we all spend together always. Meaning, the ones we automatically have spent together all of these years and will now be missed by Alex. Most recently thinking about, Birthdays. Not having Alex here makes me feel so sad. I wonder how his brothers feel? Maybe the same. I’m not quite sure. Geez, I wonder how Alex feels? Probably terrible. Ug!

We have been FaceTime-ing Alex in. We’ve done it for both Devin and Pierce’s birthdays now. With mine coming up, will I be next? I don’t know how I feel about that. I think that I am going to have to come up with another plan. A new plan for future birthdays and holidays too. He is so close, this should be better planned. It should be easy. A no brainer!

I will brainstorm today and figure it out. This can’t go on and set the tone for the future. It’s not acceptable to me and it shouldn’t be for the rest of my family either.

Just my thoughts for today. 🙂

xoxo

Scones For My Boys

Oct1

This morning I woke up and really wanted to finally make my Boys my scones that they love so much.  2 years overdue.

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Woke up two to shower and headed downstairs to get started.  Found my recipe and then gathered my ingredients.  Replacing 2 with others, because I was out of buttermilk and sugar.  No worries, I’m good at improvising and replacement.

My Boys were stoked! Scones for breakfast!! Even the two that stayed home today.  Of course they were happy, they munched on two each.

It’s the little things that really matter.  The little things that they remember that you do for them that they love.  Even the little things that you may not even think matter.  They were still thanking me when they went to bed tonight.  I’ll have to grab another bag of chocolate chips tomorrow, or maybe butterscotch this time, and make them for them again.

There isn’t nothing I would do to see my Boys smile and feel loved.  🙂

xo

Brilliant!

Sep17

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This really stuck with me today. It can’t express how I feel any better.  It also reminds me of what I need to do in my life. What I think about constantly, but don’t follow through with. That I need to just speak and not walk on eggshells. That I need to do more for myself and what makes me feel good.  

I want to thank, Rachael, a friend on Facebook. One of the very few friends that I have on Facebook, that I have never actually met in person. I adore your drive for life. For peace. For health. For education.  ♥

xo

Food Freak-Out

Feb11

This commercial freaks me out every time I see it. Scares me really.

When I was at the grocery store today getting some tortilla chips and cereal for my Boys, along with a few other items, I look around freaked out. I bought the  few things I needed, then I only bought Bananas, Grapes and Cuties in the produce area. I didn’t even see a reason to get anything else. I told myself that I would just hit the fruit stand today later on.

What it all comes down to, is that things have really changed since I was a kid. Yeah, the soda and snacks are still around, but the ingredients have changed. It scares me. I also scares me how much more of it all there is. I don’t want to give my children something that I would regret for their health later. Yes, I said regret. I say that, because I don’t believe in regrets for myself, but for my children it would kill me if I wasn’t feeding them healthy enough today and it affected their health later.

It is up to me to teach them right from wrong. Healthy, and non healthy. I most comfortable with beef, chicken and seafood. Along with fresh vegetables and fruit. Rice on occasion. Pasta on occasion too. It’s hard to care for others.

Don’t get me wrong, I still bake with sugar, butter and flower.  I would way rather bake for my children than to buy them junk from the store.  It’s not every day though.  I’m hoping that I can teach them some balance.

I saw this video again today after Super Bowl, because I was in my Weight Watchers account. Logging my 3.7 ounces chicken breast that I just ate for lunch. I clicked on the link and it just struck me.  Hard.  Sometimes I feel like what they eat is so out of my hands, it freaks me out.  Sigh, I just worry about their healthy future.

Just thought I would share my thoughts. 🙂

xo

BAD, Fun Mommy!

Jun18

This is how it’s been going in my house…

“Good morning!  We’re going to go to the swimming hole today in the mountains” (talking to my youngest two while they are sitting on their computers in the office).

“Good Morning, Mom,” they both say.

“Wait, what are you talking about? You made us go to the Boardwalk yesterday.  Why are you forcing us to do things that we don’t want to do?  I don’t want to go anywhere.” Complains my #3 Son with an exasperated and stressed look on his face.

“You know, you can get as mad at me as you want.  It’s summer.  We are going to enjoy it and life while we can.  You’re going to go and have some fun and get out of this office.  I can just take your computer privileges away for the summer, then maybe you would lean that there is more to do than just sit in a room all day and play on your computer.  So, be ready, we are leaving to be there by noon.” Then I left the room to make breakfast.

A few minutes later I walked into the office after my husband came in from outside and his conference call. “So, apparently I’m the bad guy, because I want to spend the day with the Boys at the river swimming at a swimming hole.”  My husband just made a quirky face.  He knows exactly what I’m talking about.  They do it to me all the time.

Then, my #4 says, “A hole, why are we swimming in a hole?”  While he is giggling and being silly.

As I’m in the kitchen making breakfast, my #3 came in and said he was sorry with a big hug.  Not once, but twice.  He is super, super sweet.  I wasn’t even mad or upset.  It’s nice that he doesn’t want me feeling that way though.  I’m thankful that he can say he is sorry.  I told him that we were going to have a great day.

I truly love my Boys.  Now off to wake up the older two and go through the same conversation with them.  Hahaha!  🙂

xo

Lady Mustache

Jan28

My youngest comes to kiss me good night… Me, “You are so wonderful, I love you.  I love your beautiful smile, how smart you are.  You are so funny and I love your laugh.  You have beautiful eyes.  I just love everything about you.”  Him, “You have a mustache, I can see it right there (he touches the top of my lip).  Yeah, you have a lady mustache.”  Hahahahaha!!  Good thing I love his so much all I could do is laugh.  🙂

xoxo