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Thoughts for today…

It has been quite the lazy summer.  I made sure to that after I got up that I immediately got dressed and put on my tennis shoes. I NEEDED to get on that treadmill today.  Did a leisurely walk at 3.0 while reading for just under 2 and a half miles.  It is a good start

I am down 17 pounds with Weight Watchers since September.  Slow, but still great.  I have to keep reminding myself that is 21 pounds lighter than my highest weight.  Funny thing is that I am still in the same clothes size.  Just not as tight and pretty damn close to a 12.  I figure at this rate, I will be in a 8 within another year, or so.  I’m okay with that.

My motivation has been totally lost with household stuff.  Pantry a mess.  Closets a mess.  Time to tackle a little each week.  Today I got into one of the kitchen cabinets and reorganized it and have Carmina doing the refrigerator and freezer.

I have been thinking of starting a new Blog.  Just an addition to this one.  I wonder if more people like Blogger than WordPress?  Hmmm… I may need to do a poll on that one.

My children have been sleeping in pretty late each day and it seems that they aren’t doing much, but swimming and playing on the computers all day.  We get out here and there, but with me not driving, that is sometimes impossible.  I realize that some things are out of my hands, but doing interactive things aren’t.  I need to gain my creative energy back. Especially for them.

I’m a bit pissed at myself for not planning our Summer better this year with an outstanding vacation.  My will at the time just wasn’t where it should have been.  Sometimes I feel like I am holding the rope with my family behind me in a tug-of-war game and turning asking them if we should pull and never get an answer.  That really gets to a person after a while.  I just wish I had more enthusiasm with my ideas.

I am loving that my oldest is enjoying his Guardstart Junior Lifeguard class.  It is great to see him so independent and enthused.  This is the very first thing he had done completely on his own.

I am hoping that a new job comes in this week for my Husband, or a change in his current one.  I am in such a need for a change for the positive.  In the meantime, I will trudge forward each moment the best I can and make my day great for myself and our Boys.

I am going to pull out my paints today if I can muster up the want to clean the closet everything is buried under.  My 6-year-old would be so happy if I did.  My soul probably would be too.

As said by Abraham Lincoln… “A person will be just about as happy as they make up their mind to be.”  🙂



Weight Update…

Starting Weight with Weight Watchers:  185

Highest Weight:  189

Weight Today:  171.3

Total WW Loss:  13.7

Total Loss Overall:  17.7

To Goal:  36.3

Since December 2011 I have done… 1 12k, 1 5k and 3 5k mud runs.  I walk most of the way, but get it done.  I have a blast with my friends and my family has joined in too!

I started the 100 push-up program again last week.  Started second week last night! Woo hoo!!  Now if I can just stick to it.

My weight-loss progress has been slow since January, but I am still tooling along. Still losing is what is important.

Last week I was pretty frustrated, but I used that energy and am moving forward this week.  One foot in front of the other!

I am only down .1 this week from last Sunday’s weigh-in and that can change at any moment.  Last week killed me. Salt, sodium and fried fatty foods are not my friends. I am sure glad that I don’t eat them that often, but last week I let them get to me and it pissed me off! Especially when I was at an all time low. Such an idiot!

Today is going to be a great day!  🙂


Out Of My Hands

Have you ever had that feeling that something is totally out of your hands?  Well, I never have, until recently.

I have been wanting desperately to move back to California for over 3 years now.  I don’t have a daily job that brings in a major income.  My Husband is the provider in our family at this point in our lives.  I love being home with my children and would not want to change that for anything in this world.  For the first time in my life though I have been unhappy.  Not unhappy in a bad way.  Not unhappy with my wonderful life.  Just unhappy that I feel like I have absolutely no control of this particular situation.  A huge situation in my book.

To be able to move our household of 7 my Husband would need to find a new job in California, or be transferred.  That hasn’t happened.  Again, out of my control.  I can’t find the job for him.  There are days that I think maybe I should just go ahead and find a job.  Yes, I’ll do it!  Then I think it through.  No more going on field trips, no more getting them off to school, no more being here when they call home and they are sick, hurt, or have forgotten something at home they need at school.  No more helping with homework, etc., etc.  I don’t like that.  I don’t like that at all.  Back to the starting line.

I just don’t work this way.  If there is something that I really want to do, I do it, or find a way.  Unfortunately, in this situation, I haven’t been able too and am at a total loss.  Is is maddening!  Depressing!  Frustrating!  Irritating!  Some days I just can’t understand, or maybe don’t want too, why we can’t just go!  Figure it out as we go.  In the past when I worked full-time, when ever I wanted to move, I just looked for a place and did it.  If I needed a new job I would find it.  I know that times are supposed to be different right now, but I still just can’t believe it!

I use positive thinking all the time.  Positive thoughts, affirmations, etc.  Really. I do it!  Still nothing.  I am even a true believer that everything happens for a reason.  Lately I have been questioning that as well.  I don’t want to be in Arizona any more.  Don’t get me wrong, I have some good friends here. Yes, they would be missed.  But, I’m done.  That does NOT mean that I am giving up hope though.  I am going to continue trying to figure out a way.  Think those positive thoughts and put them out into the universe.  I am not weak.  I have perseverance and I will not stop until I get there.  Sometimes this has to come with some harsh realizations, but when you feel this strongly about a situation you just have to go for it!  🙂


I am so thankful for the friends I do have…

She didn’t even know it, but I so needed to get out of the house today and I was a smidgen away from canceling.  I woke-up feeling great. The kids got off to school smoothly, then it happened. Just the way it creeps up on me every once in a while.  Just that little something that helps that inkling of anxiety come out. Then the next thing may even seem a little worse, even though I know it really isn’t, because it is how I am feeling inside and not what I am reading, or doing.  So, I went.  Had a fantastic lunch.  Ate yummy food.  Had some wine.  Now I am good.  I am so thankful for the friends I do have. I say it that way, because I have never felt like I have had many in my life.  For me, I am just thankful when they are in my life. I love them through and through.  I am grateful.  Life is good at this very moment.  🙂