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Raising Husbands & Fathers

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I love this photo. I’m always worrying about who my children are and what types of adults they will be. I want them to be kind, strong, stable and loving towards their own family one day. To support and defend their family. All I can do is my best.

I love my 4 Boys and know that some days I really feel like I am screwing them up. I hope that isn’t the truth. I know I can be hard on myself and them as well some days. I can only hope that I have instilled something amazing in them. Something wonderful that others will see, so that people gravitate towards them and they are surround with love, always.  🙂

xoxo

16 Years Ago Today…

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16 years ago today I was had been in the hospital since two days before, trying desperately have my first Son. Later in the evening, after 52 hours of labor, two hours of pushing and an awful experience with a c-section, Alex was born.

They handed him directly to us, Andrew and I. His little head of hair was glowing golden and I started to cry, then everything went blank.

I remember waking up to my Niece, Charmaine’s, voice. “Kathleen wake up. Kathleen.”

I remember hearing voices in the hall, which I think were my Sister and my Husband.

I remember him trying to latch-on for the first time.  It took a few tries, but he was a big eater.  Just wanted to lay there all the time.  Eat and sleep. When he wasn’t in my arms he was with Andrew.

The new love in our lives.

I can’t believe that was 16 years ago. It is so sweet the love that I had for him and how much more it is today.

He is an amazing child. Strong, gorgeous, serious, happy, athletic, grumpy, analytical, witty, independent and so much more.

I want to write about all the things I remember, but that would take a world of time. Instead, I am going to just keep it short and say that I love him with all of my heart.

I know him better than he knows himself. I know his quirks, sighs, deer-in-the-headlight-look, smile, walk, body movement and all.

When I think about how much he has grown and what a wonderful young man he has become, it brings tears to my eyes.

This may not be a very flowing and great post, but I am emotional today. It’s all so bittersweet and goes by too quickly. I truly always wish that time would just slow down.

I miss all the little smiles, naked carefree littles, that my children were. They aren’t like that any more.  I was hoping that would never change, but it does. I will attempt to say, that it did, even through I tried to keep their silliness in tact. I try to remind them all the time of who they were then, how they were then, how they smiled, loved and were carefree. I want them to remember that that doesn’t have to go away. I do my best, but they will become who they will. I just know that they will be amazing. As they always were.

I love you, Alex! Happy 16th Birthday. 🙂

xoxo

 

7 Things I Love About My Husband

1… He’s super funny and makes me laugh and smile.IMG_5515

2… He cleans up my puke.  Seriously.  Laugh if you must, but this is huge. We laugh about it, you can too.

3… His ass. Perfect.

4… His drive in everything that he does.  It’s inspiring and a turn-on.

5… His strength. If he ever had to carry me miles to safety, he would. He would probably be crying after a minute, or two, because I am too heavy, but he is super strong and he would do it no matter what.

6… He is so damn smart! He’s my Renaissance Man. I totally dig that about him.

7… He’s an amazing Father.  Just ask my Boys, they’ll tell you the same. No hesitation.

🙂

XOXO

Walking to calm the soul. 

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I woke up so happy early this morning, ran downstairs with a plan in mind, then my morning took a nose-dive. I went back upstairs, changed into my walking clothes, then went down with a much needed intention that I needed to get out and walk for two hours.  Just put my headphones on, turn on a podcast and breathe.

I finally got out the door over an hour later. Taking care of my family and important deeds. I walked out the door. I walked for about 35 minutes.  Enjoying this beautiful day. Thinking positive thoughts. Enjoying this amazing town that I live in. Walked to the end of the wharf admiring the tourists take photos. The locals fishing. The fisherman packing fish. Just enjoying the business of those around me. All while still breathing slow and deep.

  I must IMG_5879also say, that when I put on Rose Caraway’s, Kiss Me Quick’s Podcast, I am able to clear my mind a bit and force myself to focus on the stories. I am so thankful.

I know I mentioned yesterday, that this has been a trying month for me. A month VERY out of the norm of my preferred mood.  I am just happy that I am instilling things that will help me move forward and out of my current space.

I also must add that it is my Father’s 80th Birthday today. How amazing is that!

When I got home from my walk, we put the candles on the glorious Key Lime Pie that I both from him at Gayle’s before my walk. He asked for pie this year instead of cake.

I have to say, that I am amazed by my Father. He dances every Friday night.  He is so active and vivacious. I just hope that I can grow-up to be as healthy as he is. It is just so wonderful and a blessing.

My Father has lived with us for 15 1/2 years now. A third parent to my children. They don’t know life without him. He adores them and they adore him. It is a beautiful relationship they have. That is what makes my soul happy today.   🙂

xo

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Being Grateful… Post #11

Today I am grateful for my Father.  He has been here for myself and my family for the past 13 years.  Living with us in our home.  He is wonderful to my Children, to my Husband and to myself. I love him for all that he helps me with each and every day.  He never says no and is always here for us no matter what.  That is what I call unconditional.  I love you Dad!  🙂

xo