I catch myself holding my breathe. Shallow breathes. Uneven breathes. While sitting watching tv. While in my car. Relaxing to go to bed at night. It’s odd. Especially when I catch myself. Just holding on. 😀
I may be intense will my feelings, thoughts and how I speak. I am full of fire, love, compassion and worry, all in one big bundle. I want everything to be right in every way, for everyone. Sometimes I just want to shake people and tell them to do the right thing. Sometimes I overwhelm people. I am honest. I am not a fool. I give the benefit of the doubt. I am also a fact and truth seeker. I wear my heat on my sleeve. I want to smile, all the time. I want to hug, everyone. I don’t like uncomfortableness. I don’t like deceit and lies. I need truth and calm all the time. I thrive on words. Conversations. Feeling close. I thrive on love. Love from every person I know and meet. 😀
I’ve recently started working again. I’ve done a little this and that over the years, but really having just focused on one thing and really strived to make it great.
Over the last few weeks I’ve been educating myself. Researching. Following guidelines. Getting mentored. Making connections and so much more.
Being home with my family is my priority. No one will change that decision for me.
It’s really hard to work on your own. It’s really hard to not feel defeated. It’s really hard to make those contacts and have people take you seriously and to trust in you. To not feel like you are burdening them, or tricking them into something. I feel like if someone knows me they would trust in me. Know that what I am doing is great and something I believe in. Something that I trust. A business that I trust in.
On that note, today I will not feel defeated. I will keep moving forward. Find clients that believe in this company and their products as I do. Those that want a healthier home. Those that want to lead healthier lives. Those that want to save money and shop easy and at any time they like.
This is going to be great and I will keep moving forward. Even on those hard days. I will find the real trust support. In return, I will see the smiles on their faces. That will be my reward. 😀
Friday I was able to get in my second hike. My Husband even joined me. I was so happy. We went early before he needed to start working for the day and got about 3 1/2 or 4 miles in. It was so chilly and lovely out. Here are a few photos for you to enjoy.
Can’t forget my silly socks for the day! Hahaha!! 🙂
I don’t know whose photo this is, but I hope they don’t mind me using it.
I love this photo. I’m always worrying about who my children are and what types of adults they will be. I want them to be kind, strong, stable and loving towards their own family one day. To support and defend their family. All I can do is my best.
I love my 4 Boys and know that some days I really feel like I am screwing them up. I hope that isn’t the truth. I know I can be hard on myself and them as well some days. I can only hope that I have instilled something amazing in them. Something wonderful that others will see, so that people gravitate towards them and they are surround with love, always. 🙂
A few weeks back I broke my toe and metatarsal during the night, as I was going back to bed from the restroom. Lovely! Anyway, it is pretty much healed now. A few discomforts , but nothing to really complain about.
I decided once my foot was feeling better I would join the 52 Hike Challenge on this past Monday. Well, I did it! I joined on Monday. Educated myself on the challenge and am going for it. I had been wanting to do it for months and am so glad that I finally did!
First off, I love to hike. I don’t get out enough and this is just the little extra push that I need.
I don’t get out as much as I like, because I have a busy family life. No complaints here though, I wouldn’t change a thing. I just need to fit in more time for me, which can be hard certain days. I am fortunate to live in an area where I can find a great hiking spot rather easily at the last minute. Woot!
Tuesday was the first day I had a hike planned. I was thinking a 6 miler up at the Land of Medicine Buddha. I have a favorite hike there that I haven’t done in quite a long while. Well, bam, I am gifted with watching my Great Niece for the rest of the week. No worries! I’ll just take her with me for our first hike together. So, that’s what we did.
It’s fun and challenging hiking with a 2-year-old. Challenging, because they are very slow and rarely do you get to do more than a mile if they are walking on their own. Fun, because they are so fun to teach about the woods and see the wonder through their eyes.
It was a GREAT morning hiking with her and nostalgic. I use to take her older sisters hiking with me when they were little. I can’t wait for the 4 of us to all hike together. What a wonderful day that will be!
I’m just so excited that I got my first hike in, even though, only just over a mile, I got it done. It was a gorgeous day and exactly what Madison and I both needed. 🙂
This is such a true statement. I’ve talked to people that have burned, thrown away or tore up old photos. I don’t believe in that. I think that photos are your history. With good memories, or bad. They are still your history and something that should be cherished.
I wish that I had more photos of myself when I was young. I have one of myself with my father. I have another of myself with my Mother. Another of my Grandmother, myself and my Cousin Keith. A couple of myself while very young alone while enjoying summer vacation. A couple teenage ones. Now, a lot as an adult.
I take tons of photos of my children. They hold so many memories for me. One day when they look at them, I hope they will hold wonderful memories for them and show them their history.
That brings me to another subject. Don’t forget to save and also print out the photos on your phones. I think thousands, even millions, of photos are getting lost each day, because we dont download them and print them out. What a waste. Take some time and do it. You will be happy you did. 🙂