Movies that make you go hmmm…

 I love a movie that just gets your thoughts flowing… What would it be like to hike the PCT? Am I out of control in my life? Would my Boys be sad if I died? Why haven’t I bought a new pair of hiking books, I love to hike? Am I wasting my life? What is my full potential? I wonder if I make my family happy? Does Andrew still love me the way he used to? Am I boring? Am I disgusting? Am I happy? I’m so happy the weather is cool today. I’m happy I got those counters decluttering in the kitchen today. I don’t want to die. What time is it? I miss camping. I wonder how much the train is to Oregon? I wonder if I make Andrew happy? Don’t forget to ask Dad if he can pick Devin up today. Maybe I should look into posting those bikes on Craigslist. I could totally hike for miles in my Tevas. I wonder what kinds of essentials I would need for a long backpacking trip? I need to book us a trip to the Treesort. I wonder which train station is closest to the Treesort? I wonder if Andrew would be up for a train ride? I wonder if Andrew can get some time off work? I haven’t ridden my bike for a while, maybe I’ll take it over to Perfectly Pressed tomorrow. I need to start riding that hill more often to get stamina. One day it will get easier, right? Why am I so hungry today? I wonder how many points that juice was I drank this morning? I wonder how many points beets juiced are? What the hell is with all of these “national” days? I wonder who decides and creates these “national” days? They’re kind of dumb, are people that bored? I would never do heroine. Why are my eyes bothering me so much?

My crazy thoughts for an afternoon. I must say though, that movies as these get your juices flowing. I like that. 😀


Tired Legs

I was riding Gypsy the other day and realized that my legs are for sure NOT my strongest muscles in my body.  I tried to kick ass and pump it up one of the neighborhood hills and here came the asthma that I forget I have.  I made it though!

I remember my legs feeling like this after riding my bike across town when I was a teenager.  I would get off after riding quite a  long distance and they would feel like they were ready to go out from under me.

When I lived in Arizona I didn’t feel it as much as I do here in CA.  Arizona is flat and easy.  At least it was in the town that I lived in.  When I did hit the occasional hill, I didn’t think much of it.

My conclusion is, that I need to keep working up those hills.  I have 2 in particular that I am going to work my way into.  They are very intimidating to me.  I think it will be good for my lungs to strengthen them as well and work my way up to the steeper ones.

I’m going to keep on pumping and working these legs of mine.  I can’t be outdone by the individuals that are double my age and kick ass every day.  Ha!  They. Are. Awesome!!  🙂


Meet Gypsy

I have a new fun toy and I’ve named her Gypsy.  She is a fun-loving free spirit.  She is my new Electra Bike.  She is beautiful!!!  I just love her!

Meet Gypsy

She really is so much prettier in person.  Probably the last bike that I will ever have for pleasure.  I can just picture myself on this bike when I am 90.  My long hair flowing in the wind.  Still not wanting to wear a helmet.  Hahaha!  🙂


Pinterest and Me – A New Beginning



I’ve been thinking a lot lately about Pinterest and how much I like it. I’ve decided to add something fun and new to blog about. Using a “pin” on my Pinterest board and actually blogging about it.

A little background about Pinterest and I. Several years ago my friend, Lisa, sent me a message and told me that I should check out her boards on Pinterest and join myself. I looked it up and, knowing how addicted I can become with catalogs and magazines, I decided against it. Then about a year ago my Bestie, Tracey, brought it to my attention again. Oh boy! So, I thought about it. Long and hard. It took me several months, but then I did it. I joined! Oh boy, the madness had begun. LOL!!

I used to keep all kinds of catalogs and magazines around, turn the pages so they stuck out the top, so I could go back and see what it was that I wanted, or to remember that idea. When I was younger I used to even tear out the pages to keep in idea files that would forever get lost and forgotten about. Needless to say, I am a giant out-of-sight-out-of-mind person. If I can’t see it then it will most likely ALWAYS get forgotten about. This is just how my brain works. I am very, very visual in many ways.

I see Pinterest as a huge magazine, catalog and reference site. I just love it!!! I can’t throw it away like I have done with my catalogs and magazines that come in the mail. Yes, I actually have the recycle can right next to me now when I am going through the mail. I just toss it is and don’t have any more huge piles. It is my method to the madness. That is why I came up with this. At least I will be showing how I have been using some of my pins that I have on all my crazy boards.

Please keep a look out for the future posts… “Pinterest and Me”. 🙂



Shrink Yo’Self – True Confessions Tuesday

I was asked to talk about the positive things I did this week, but I feel need to talk about what I know I have slacked on and want to own up to it.

First off I have missed blogging on the past 2 True Confessions. Go figure my days getting away from me and the next thing I know it is Wednesday, or Thursday. Who the hell knows what I am doing, but it is obviously something and not blogging like I should be.

Second, I was a bad, bad girl this week. I haven’t been drinking alcohol very much and this week I had a craving for Guinness BAD. This past Wednesday I had 1.  Friday I had 4.  Saturday I went to a birthday dinner and party and didn’t drink beer, but did have plenty of other things.  Sunday I drank 2 Snake Bites. Half Guinness and half Cider.  Last night I had one too.  Today I will have nothing, but water and the same for the rest of the week.  Well, at least I will try as of this moment.  Can you imagine what those calories did to me? I counted most of them, logged them, then by the time Saturday came around I didn’t log for the birthday party. Ug. Yep.  I was up 1.4 at my weigh-in on Sunday. Such an idiot!  My scale and the WW scale are never the same.  This morning my scale said 176.  BAD!!!  I am working hard to get back down by this next Sunday.  I want the 1.4 gone, plus a little more.  It is such a pity how fast it comes back on and how slowly it is to get it off.  Just sucks really!  I wasn’t even really that bad with my eating except for Sunday. Oh well. I own it.  Time to move on!

Starting Weight:  185

Highest Weight:  189

Weight Today:  176.0

Total WW Loss:  9.0

Total Loss Overall: 13.0

To Goal:  41.0

On a good note I have two of my Boys that started Tutoring this past week and it is going fantastic.  They come home with happy faces. Their self-esteem and reading/writing are moving forward. The Wilkins Learning Center in Gilbert has the most amazing people ever!

I finally hired a new housekeeper and she starts tomorrow. With a crew of 5 others!  How fantastic is that!  I haven’t had anyone helping me with the house for over a year. I know this may sound petty, but for me it is a life saver.  I have gone though a pretty hard year and a half personally and just the little things like this make me feel so much better.  I am a bit ashamed about the way my house looks now, others would disagree, but this is a step in the right direction for myself. A clean house makes for a happy Kathleen.

I started yesterday off by going on the treadmill not once, but twice, throughout my day.  I was in a weird bored mood and it really helped.  I can’t wait to get back on it today!

Today I am starting the 100 Push-ups program.  I have tried it before, but never finished. I have a good friend that started a few days ago, so I am going to try to catch up to her. I find that having someone to do something with really, really helps. Wish me luck!  Push-up can be damn hard.  LOL!

Today I am cooking Miso Soup for my Boys.  They love it when I make it for them. Pretty healthy and low points too. I am also going to make a vegetable soup today for the crock pot to have for whenever we want a snack. My oldest especially loves soup.  Soup and salad, how can you go wrong!

I closed down my Mom’s Making Time for Mom’s MeetUp group this past Sunday. It was time.  I have had it going since, well, I can’t remember… either February 2008, or 2009.  I just feel like it was the right time and the right thing to do.  I am going to look into maybe joining some other groups on my own and take it from there.  Life is an adventure right?!

I am going to be doing the Color Run here in Tempe this weekend with my family and a friend.  I can’t wait!  It just looks so fun and exciting for us all and such a great cause!

I also signed my Husband and I up for the Skirt Chaser 5k. Looks like a blast as well. I joined with a few friends and also found out at the birthday dinner I was at the other night that a bunch of those girls will be there too. Woo hoo!  Something fun and healthy to look forward too.  🙂



Shrink Yo’Self Fitness Challenge Week 2

Today is our Wednesday check-in for the Shrink Yo-Self Fitness Challenge.

Today’s Weight:  175.6.

I can’t remember what my weight was last week at this time. Somewhere around 177 I believe.  Anyway, the Challenge for this week is staying the same as last week. Workout 3 to 5 times a week. Have I been doing this?  Some days yes.  Some days no.  I have gotten on my bike a few times in the past week, but still no Bikram and still no other exercising. Why? Well, because I am Kathleen and this is what I do.  On a good note though… I am getting a treadmill tomorrow night!!!  Woo hooo!  So excited!

When I WAS going to the gym the thing that I used the most was the treadmill, so having one in the house is going to be great. Not only will I use it, but my Father and Husband will want to use it as well.  I will have to keep my Boys in check about the rules of safety while using a treadmill, but I will for sure let them use it if they like.

The Assignment that went along with this weeks Challenge is “Dear Me“, which I have already completed as of last week. You can see it here…

Starting Thursday, or maybe Friday sometime, I will get my ass on that Treadmill and walk, walk, walk.  I also plan to ride my bike over to meet my Boys after school too. My 3 oldest rode bikes today, but my youngest didn’t. I think I’ll take the carrier over with baby girl and ride home with them all.  My oldest has his saxophone today anyway, so I can put that in the carrier for him as well.  I’ll take the exercise any way I can get it! 🙂


Shrink Yo’Self Assignment – Dear Me. In 2013.

Shrink Yo' Self in 2012

Dear Me. In 2013.

The Assignment:

“For this week’s project, I want you to close your eyes. (Well, after you read this.) And pretend that it’s January — of 2013.

One full year ahead.

And when you think about January 2013, think about where you are sitting. What you look like. Where you are. Think about all the things you did in 2011. How far you’ve come. The goals you’ve reached. The obstacles you faced in 2011. The things you learned. Visualize where you will be. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I know you don’t have much to go on since we’re not even out of January 2012 yet. But that’s kind of the whole purpose.

Now, ”future self” (*this is me waving to your future self and saying “Hi!!!”*), go ahead and write ”current self” a letter. Tell yourself what you’ve done in 2012 and who you’ve become. Tell yourself about all the scale and non-scale victories you’ve had. Anything that you think is valuable for your current self to know, go ahead, tell it.

Write the letter to yourself like it actually happened. No hypotheticals. Because “future-self” actually knows what went on in 2012! You have to trust her (or him)!! Channel “Future Self”. So that’s what it is this week. “Future-self,” write “current-self” a letter about what 2011 is like and what you hope for 2013.

This is one of those things you can actually hold in your hand when January 2013 comes around and you can see for yourself just what you’ve done. I am sure you will agree with yourself on that day and maybe even surprise yourself. Because you’ve got 11 more months to make it real. And you will. Because you rock and because you’re you, and ps. I already know what you’re made of. (And because future me told me so.)”

January 6, 2013

Well Kathleen, I must say that it has been an interesting year.  While I sit here in our new backyard with Queenie on my lap in Aptos I couldn’t be happier.  The Boys are getting ready to head back to school after the holidays after another amazing Christmas and New Years.

Last New Year we spent it at the Manning’s and boy did we miss them this time around.  Skype is so great though, because we get to keep in great touch with them.

Some other fun things that we did this year…

  • We bought Season Passes to Disney for the family.
  • I started riding bikes to school with the Boys.
  • Alex passed me up in my shoe size.
  • We did 3 more run/walks.  This time with the whole family.
  • Andrew found a new job in the Bay Area finally and we got to move back to California!  Wow, I never thought that would happen.  That was probably the best thing of all.  Better late than never.
  • I stuck with Weight Watchers.  Kim and I went diligently every Sunday (sometimes Mondays) and I lost 40 more pounds!!  I feel fantastic!
  • Bikram this year has changed my life.  I am flexible, energetic and happy all the time.  The new studio in Aptos is fantastic too!
  • Paladin is doing much better with his Valley Fever and we hope to have another great year with him.
  • Queenie and Rogue had another litter of puppies.  We found them all great home and boy was I tempted to keep one.

At the beginning of the year I started 3 new Challenges.

1) 100 ounces of water a day.  I am still drinking those 100 ounces of water a day and I feel great.  It really helped with getting the weight off and keeping my skin healthy.  With as much Bikram and Bike Riding that I have been doing, some days I drink over 150 ounces.

2) Shrink Yo’Self 2012, which ended on February 28th.  My goal was to complete all of the assignments and lose at least 5 pounds during the Challenge.  I did it!!  I was so happy!

3) 52 Small Changes. Each week was a new Challenge.  I completed them all, which I was amazed!  It is so hard for me to keep with something that long, but I did it and I feel great on the inside and look great on the outside.

Being able to walk and ride my bike to the beach has been a huge thing for me right now.  I not only get exercise, but I am reading more and my depression is finally gone.  The ocean does wonders for Kathleen.  🙂

On a very cool note… that bathing suit that T said that I would never fit into that sits in my drawer… IT FITS!!!  Woo hoo!  I will post pics when I get a chance.  That just made me feel even more fantastic.

Well, it has been one amazing year and I am so looking forward to 2013 and seeing what it brings me and the family.


Yourself – Kathleen.



Not tonight…

I was supposed to be writing a blog post tonight that is an assignment from a Challenge that I am doing.  Long and short of it, I am supposed to write like it is 2013 and what great things I did in 2012.  Unfortunately, I don’t think that is going to get done tonight.  Here’s why…

I was out for a bike ride tonight with my 4 Boys.  My youngest is 6.  I was hoping to get out and get some exercise.  Unfortunately I don’t feel like that really happened.  Yes, we rode almost 3 miles, but over an hour.  As I was riding I was thinking about my assignment.  All I could think about is why my 6-year-old isn’t comfortable riding his bike.  Well, because I haven’t taken him on enough bike rides.  I don’t make him get off the damn computers and play outside enough.  Then it just escalated from there.  Why my 12-year-old has gotten worse and worse at his spelling, which is now affecting his hand writing.  Why, because I haven’t worked with him enough over the past year, because I have been in a crappy depression for the past year and a half.

I guess when I get frustrated I start to blame everything on myself.  Everything in my life and my Children’s lives.  Me, me, me. I suck!  Ug.  I will stop right there, because I could really go on and on about my last 2 years.  It has gone by in a blink of an eye and I feel like nothing has been accomplished.  I may be over reacting, but that is why I am NOT doing my assignment tonight.  It will have to wait until morning, or tomorrow night when I am hopefully in a better light.  🙂


3rd Week… 3rd Weigh-In

This past Sunday I was pretty anxious about my weigh-in. I missed the week before due to being camping with my family. So, I was at one more pound of loss. As I looked at it, that was 1 pound over two weeks and it sucked! Needless to say, I was pretty upset. My emotions were down and I got pretty sad during the meeting.

I spoke up during the meeting. I explained how most of the people in there have changed their diets… less soda, less sweets, less snacks, smaller portions, etc. For me it is different. I already eat very healthy, no guilty pleasures, etc. I got pretty teary eyed, trying to hold it together. Ug!

I made a decision to try to eat more during each day and even go over my 29 daily points. I also started bike riding again this week. I got 4 days in, which was great! So far so good from what my scale says this week. I am kind of nervous and excited about tomorrow. If it stayed at the 179 I weighed on my own scale today I would be ecstatic! Only tomorrow will tell! 🙂

Round 3 – Day 28

177.6… I can’t believe my eyes!  I ate what I wanted yesterday, but in small amounts and spread out through out the day.  It’s working!  I am learning that I NEED to eat.  My body doesn’t seem to hold on to the weight, or make my weight go up when I do the opposite.  One meal a day, or 3 meals a day doesn’t work for me obviously.  If I can just keep this going that would be great!  I know I have said that I have come to this conclusion before, but it is just really hard for me to do.  My Mother did always tell me to just put less on your plate and eat less… she was right.  Unfortunately, my Father says the opposite… don’t eat, slow down on the liquids and you will lose.  The not eating and only eating your meals always seemed “normal” to me.  Not that I have ever been a overeater, because I haven’t.  I am 41 and my hormones and metabolism have changed.  I know that and just need to deal with it correctly for me.

One unfortunate thing that I am dealing with is that I am stuck at home each day and can’t drive.  If I don’t ride my bike, or get a ride I don’t go anywhere.  I can’t stand working out at home, even though I do try from time-to-time.  I have been wanting to go to yoga so bad, but have no way there.  I quit the gym, because I have no way there.  It is going to be 118 today and would be stupid if I got on my bike for a bike ride, because the heat exhaustion would make me feel even worse.  The pool has been my savior.  A little bit of exercise in the pool here and there makes me feel good. I know there is more I could do, but I just haven’t had the drive.  Blah, blah, blah… I am not a complainer and don’t want to seem that way.  One thing I do wish I had was someone to workout with each day.  I don’t have that.

Anyway, I was thinking of setting my alarm clock and getting up early and getting on my bike then.  Riding 5 or 6 miles before my Husband leaves for work.  I feel so pathetic having to do that and feel like a fucking prisoner.  This sucks so bad and I have until February of 2014.  Just lovely!  I could get into this more about what happened, how it made me feel, how I feel that my children are effected by it, but that isn’t what I want to do.  I have just been trying to do my best with myself, having fun with my children and keeping the household and myself happy.  That is what is important!

Oh and on a great note… I gave my Father some money to get me some fruits and veggies yesterday… anything good that he could find and he came home with 6 or 8 bags full.  I am so excited for all of that yumminess today!!  It is now time for me to start my day with some left over salmon on a bagel thin with cream cheese and capers and a glass of fresh juiced carrot juice.  Lunch is going to be salmon and cabbage tacos (again left over BBQ‘d salmon from last night).  I will have to come up with some type of yummy and healthy sauce to put over it… maybe a mint and jalapeno, or I’ll make some of my Dad’s Salsa… that is always the best thing!  Good things ahead.  A relaxing weekend.  I love it!  🙂