I was supposed to be writing a blog post tonight that is an assignment from a Challenge that I am doing. Long and short of it, I am supposed to write like it is 2013 and what great things I did in 2012. Unfortunately, I don’t think that is going to get done tonight. Here’s why…
I was out for a bike ride tonight with my 4 Boys. My youngest is 6. I was hoping to get out and get some exercise. Unfortunately I don’t feel like that really happened. Yes, we rode almost 3 miles, but over an hour. As I was riding I was thinking about my assignment. All I could think about is why my 6-year-old isn’t comfortable riding his bike. Well, because I haven’t taken him on enough bike rides. I don’t make him get off the damn computers and play outside enough. Then it just escalated from there. Why my 12-year-old has gotten worse and worse at his spelling, which is now affecting his hand writing. Why, because I haven’t worked with him enough over the past year, because I have been in a crappy depression for the past year and a half.
I guess when I get frustrated I start to blame everything on myself. Everything in my life and my Children’s lives. Me, me, me. I suck! Ug. I will stop right there, because I could really go on and on about my last 2 years. It has gone by in a blink of an eye and I feel like nothing has been accomplished. I may be over reacting, but that is why I am NOT doing my assignment tonight. It will have to wait until morning, or tomorrow night when I am hopefully in a better light. 🙂