I was at my oldest Sons Patriotic Music Performance last week on Thursday.  It was the 4th, 5th & 6th grades.  During the end of the performance they sing each individual military song & ask each class… Army, Navy, Coast Guard, You get the idea, To stand while they sing so they can pay tribute. For the second year in a row, at least that is how I remember it, I get very upset.  I find myself having to really breath & control my emotion & tears.  It’s crazy!  Let me tell you a little about me.  I don’t like the military, any of it honestly.  I don’t like the killing & actions that it brings upon so many.  So many people gone from their families. Sometimes for good.  I don’t like the pain, hurt & killing in any way that you may justify it to me.  Other countries are what they are & the majority if that time it doesn’t make life better w/ war.

I have tried to figure out where my emotion comes from just out of the blue.  Maybe it is deep inside unconsciously thinking of all of the abandoned families & lives that have been lost.  I am at a loss.